BGM - 恍然间，你是心口的蚊子血

Playing My Game

by Lene Marlin

from Playing My Game

Wont open my mouth,
You know what Ill say
It hurts me that its gotta be here this way
I can no longer hide
God knows Ive tried
I held on as long as I could
If I could change it, I would
This is the way I am,
And this is what I do.
I cry my tears
But theyre not for you
Playing a game
I know youve done too
I shouldnt have waited,
But still its all the same
Cause you know,
Im just playing my game.
Close your ears if you dont like the sound of my voice
Youre acting like I
Like I had a choice
But to leave you behind well,
Ive made up my mind.
I cry my tears
But they not for you
Playing a game
I know youve done too
I shouldnt have waited,
But still it is all the same
Because you know,
Im just playing my game.
Dont hold me with your eyes
The light in them I cannot see,
No need to blind me
Theres this darkness where I walk
You thought you had your future
All figured out.
I cry my tears
But theyre not for you
Playing a game
I know youve done too
I shouldnt have waited,
But still it is all the same
Cause you know,
Im just playing my game,
Im playing my game.

本想翻这首歌的歌词来着; Lene Marlin算得上我最爱的流行女歌手。但是终于还是放弃。歌词很简单。但是我没有能力在歌词一般精湛优美的语言中转述它本身的意境和我体会的情绪。最简单的也是最困难的。

最近听的音乐很纷杂，听的时候都很high，Selfish Machines有很强的EMO风，适合一个人在家无聊长草发泄用；Versus Video Games单听名字就知道，这是对经典游戏音致敬和“篡改”，虽然从不是player不过一直是游戏音的拥趸。

Artist	Album	Genre
Avenged Sevenfold	Nightmare	Metal
Pierce The Veil	Selfish Machines (Deluxe Edition)	Post Hardcore
Daniel Tidwell	Versus Video Games	Metal

 

但是想找一首能代表最近心情的音乐的时候，找到的却是几乎要压箱底的Lene。Lene的专辑绝对算不上最常播放的曲目，无聊如我常常爱了某首歌就会一天到晚地单曲，然后很快丢到脑后。不过她算得上我最长情的歌手。隔上一段时间总会扒拉出来，一整个下午一首一首听。

心情的郁结并非我能控制。片刻之前还high得跳脱，突然就沉郁了。与父母小吵一架，回到自己房间之后打开播放器，却在不停下一首，直到Playing My Game。Lene的歌其实算不上治愈。对苦逼的心情几乎雪上加霜，只是会慢慢让人安静下来。

她的音色也许算不上抓人，但是只要她一开口，就能在纷纷扰扰之中认出来。歌声，音色，都是淡然的。有人说在她的歌声中听到了绝望和苦痛，有人说在她的歌声中听到了甜蜜和温暖。情由心生，我只听见淡然。

同样来自北陆，来自加拿大的Avril几乎人尽皆知，来自挪威的Lene大约小众许多。Lene其实不是做流行歌手的料，套用国语音乐的话，她应该叫做小清新，和陈绮贞共通点应该更多。笑，不过陈绮贞我坚决跳过，Lene则一直迷恋。北陆出来的女孩子，火爆和淡然，竟然没有违和感。

Lene Marlin，我可以在她的每一首歌里找到契合的感情。现在我的心情就如这首歌。